Sometimes when I’m lacking in blogging inspiration (as I have recently, which has been pretty obvious, I’m sure), I get the itch to change my design. I think of it almost like rearranging a room for inspiration. So far in my blogging journey, this has worked. A fresh look helps me to get back in the game and reinvigorates my love for blogging. I’m hoping it works this time also.
I’ve been struggling recently. Struggling to figure out what direction this blog is taking and how big of a role it is going to play in my life, in my routine.
Sometimes I wonder if, after all this time, I still haven’t found my niche. I dabbled in outfit posts, rambled about my life, blogged about blogging, and wrote buzzfeed style posts. I’ve tried it all. And I’m just not sure what fits. I find it easiest to write about my life but each time I get too personal in a post I wind up feeling like a huge narcissist. Then I get embarrassed. Then I worry about how many personal details I’m putting on the internet.
I’m also fearful. Fearful that if I really shared my actual thoughts (and not just the smoothed over, politically correct nonsense I usually post), that people wouldn’t like me. That I’d rub people the wrong way. Sometimes I wish this whole blog was completely anonymous. I admire the bravery of the bloggers who boldly put hilarious, inappropriate, or unpopular opinions out there. I don’t know that I could handle the backlash. Strike that. I know I couldn’t.
But I going to try to keep going with this thing. I’m going to keep writing and keep sharing. Maybe I’ll get more brave in the process. I’m coming up on 3 years of blogging and therefore this is the hobby I have stuck with for the longest (by far). Truthfully, I love digging through my own archives, remembering moments in my life or oohing and ahhing over Archie’s puppy pictures. It preserves my thoughts, opinions, and life events in my mid-twenties. I want to keep this place. I want it to thrive.
If you have any commentary about what posts you like reading from me, I’d love the feedback. Thanks a million.