We’re having a baby on Friday! Or sooner. But it feels like it’ll just be Friday. I’m delivering via a scheduled c-section on Friday at 8am (more on that here). If I went in to labor before then, they would just do a c-section immediately. I don’t know what the time before you go into labor should feel like but I feel pretty fine and normal. Just more tired.
size of the baby: A baby! A newborn baby!
clothes: All maternity pants at this point plus my beloved Align leggings are still in the rotation. Lots of non-maternity oversized turtleneck sweaters and the few shirts that I have that fit me with cardigans over them. You can see all of my recent outfit on my @momsinthemirror instagram that I share with my best friend.
movement: She’s still not a crazy kicker. More like she rolls around and then goes back to sleep. I can tell where her feet are now usually. She has her back along my left side.
sleep: Still good. Except for coughing from a cold I have but that’s not pregnancy related. Usually I just get up once a night still. I feel terrible for the pregnant mamas who can’t sleep but that has just not been me.
missing: Not dying a little inside when my toddler takes his shoes off after I just put them on. Picking things up off the ground or any kind of crunching of my abdomen gives me this weird, immediate heartburn that almost feels like I’m going to yack. It’s not the most fun thing. I also miss not coughing.
cravings and aversions: On the whole I’ve probably liked sweets more this pregnancy than last. I never drink soda and lately I’ve craved an ice cold Coca-cola. I ordered a six pack of the mini cans from Amazon Fresh (yes, I’ve also been doing grocery delivery). Also the last two days I just haven’t been very hungry at all. I have to make myself eat. Maybe my body is out of room?
what we’ve bought: We’re ready. Everything is set up. I also stocked up on all the things I didn’t know about last time or didn’t have ready at home – nursing pads, pads, a freezer full of Trader Joe’s frozen section, etc.
what i’m dreaming about: I had a dream last night that I predicted that her weight would be 7lbs. 11oz. and then she was born and she was 7lbs. 11oz. I have no idea what I actually think she’ll weigh but let’s go with that.
how i’m feeling: Pregnancy wise I feel pretty good. Cold season wise…yikes.
I completely lost my voice the day after Thanksgiving but still felt okay so I thought I was in the clear but now I’ve come down with a bad cough. I’m trying so hard to get better because having a cough and after major abdominal surgery sounds awful, let alone that I could get baby girl sick. I’m drinking all the water and taking shots of elderberry syrup 3x a day. I hadn’t taken any medication this whole pregnancy but I had to cave and get one of the okayed cough syrups because I couldn’t stop coughing.
workouts: I walked over five miles two days this week so far. My best friend says if I don’t want to go in to labor I need to sit down more so I’ve been trying to do that. It’s not going well. This morning when Nav took Ben to his class I was supposed to rest but instead I cleaned out my pantry. Sitting still is not my strong suit.
nav is: Working from home today and then he’s officially on paternity leave! He worked from home this week and it’s been so nice to have him around to help with Ben.
looking forward to: Meeting this little girl. Giving Ben a lifelong best friend. And someone to plan my funeral with. I keep saying that (kind of jokingly) and Nav is like “that is so morbid” and it is but it’s also true. My siblings are the best and even if he doesn’t understand right away or appreciate a newborn (because ya know, they’re kind of smushy blobs for a bit), he’ll be so thankful for her throughout his life.
I’m not someone who is going to feel guilty about dividing my attention etc. Ben and this little girl are exactly the same distance apart as my brother and me and I have zero memories of feeling like my Mom’s attention was divided (because I was too young to remember) but I have a lifetime of memories with a really amazing brother. Worth it. So anytime that Mom guilt creeps in, I’ll just think of my brother and know that giving them each other was the best thing I ever did for them.
Having major surgery while I’m wide awake. Last time I had zero processing time to get used to the idea that I was having a c-section. It happened so quickly which I now realize was probably a good thing – I had no time to be really nervous. The surgery itself makes me more nervous this time.
Having this cough still and it being brutally painful with a surgical incision. Getting baby girl sick.
Leaving Ben for several days. My Mom is coming to stay with him and Nav will go home every day and hang with him post-nap and then do bedtime (just to keep him on his routine). Nav will come back after and stay with me at the hospital. I just think I’ll miss him. He’ll come visit Saturday morning. I’m okay with being apart from him but usually that’s for like two hours on date night, not like four days.
I’m also nervous that I’ll forget to tell my Mom some piece of pivotal information (like, lock the gate at all times, because he will pull the handle and could fall right down the stairs) that would jeopardize his safety. There are a lot more logistics/moving parts in the city. More cars, more kids in shared spaces, more everything. It just requires you to be very “on”. I trust my Mom with him completely but there are weird things you just don’t know in a new environment.
Archie getting off his leash with the dog walker and running away. For the record, I don’t even think he’d run away (especially if they had treats as bribery) but losing Archie getting lost is one of my biggest fears, pregnant or not. He is my first baby, after all.
The c-section getting postponed. The doctor told me it can happen and it’s based on the number of women in labor that morning. I just feel like that would be such a let down.
The chance of any time in the NICU.
best moments: Just having a lot of time with the three of us this week since Nav worked from home. Feeling ready in the event that she could come any time. There’s definitely a comfort in that.
I’ll probably get a chance to post on Instagram first when she comes so hop over to @nadinerebeccaxo for updates.